April 7th

Tonight is our last broadcast. Amira will take the first half and summarize her story and the program that has helped her so very much, "Mending the Soul."

The second half, Linda and I will summarize what you can do to begin your own personal healing. Facts about the abuser will be shared and how you can only work on yourself. Remember that anyone who doesn't see your love and choses to make you miserable by lies and misconceptions, is abusing you. 

Jesus said to turn the other cheek, not because the abuser is without hope but because God needs to handle them. When you walk away from people who use your love and then stab you in the back, you are ready to begin the journey of healing. Pray that God will help them and leave them alone. 

 

The kingdom of God is within you but you cannot feel God's love when you are hurt all the time. You are created from God's love and the only way to feel God's love is to become it. That is the only chance you have of finding joy. God wants you to enjoy life and to feel His love that has never left you. You do your part in your healing and leave the abusers with God, for He knows what they need. :)

 

 

 

Program March 31

We continue with Amira Birger as she takes us into the world of what it's like to be abused. What it looks like and how it feels is the only way we are going to stop it. Many times when we are in abusive relationships we don't even realize it because we are so used to just "surviving". Amira shared with me that for many years she thought the abuse was just no big deal but this is what abuse does. It takes away our ability to see our rights as human spiritual beings. God didn't create us to allow others to hurt us. The abuser sees us as not having any rights to even enjoy the littlest things. The abuser takes away our family and friends and enjoys doing it. We must take back our lives and know God wants us to enjoy the life He gave us as a gift. It's not easy but it can be done. 

Tonight we have special guests:

Brittney who is a videographer and has been working very hard throughout the US and Mexico filming a documentary on Human Trafficking. We need to understand that this problem exists everywhere and even in the most unlikely places.

Blanca who is a facilitator of Mending the Soul. Tonight she will share with us how the program works and how someone can get started in their area. 

Program March 24

Tonight we continue our series on "Human Trafficking". Amira Birger continues her heartbreaking story of a life full of abuse, beginning at age 6 years old. Also joining us is a Former Phoenix City Councilwoman, Peggy Bilsten who spends much time helping our youth. Also a special guest who is the Director of "Mending The Soul", Dagny Mallory, will share with us the program that has helped Amira Birger to not only heal from the past, but also to plan a future that will bring her back the joy she has missed for so many years.

Join us as we continue to share.

 

Here is some information on our Special Guests.

Mending the Soul Ministries, Inc. is a non-profit 501(c)3 organization that empowers communities and equips churches for ministry to those impacted by abuse. Foundational to Mending the Soul is the integration of scientific and social research on abuse with biblical and theological truth.

Peggy Bilsten – Mending the Soul Board Chair, former Phoenix City Councilwoman & Vice Mayor

Dagny Mallory – Mending the Soul Director of Operations

Website:  www.mendingthesoul.org

Also, Amira Birger who inspires us all to continue to fight for the freedom of our Youth.

 

 

Program March 17

Join us tonight for a full program dedicated to Amira Birger. Sold into Human Trafficking in Phoenix, Az, and becoming a Survivor that isn't afraid to stand up for what is right.

Listen to her story and gather new strength as she explains what helped her heal and move on in life. 

 

 

Program March 10

 

First of Three-Part series.

Next week and the week after we will have a special guest, Amira Birger. She is a survivor of Human Trafficking in the US.

 

The Troubles in Life are Not To Destroy You

God's love for you is always there. However, when are lives seem to be going no where and the pain is never ending, we cannot feel God's love. Tonight we speak on how to find Abundant Joy no matter what has happened in your life.

Don't keep doing things that only hurt you. Take courage, face the truth, and move on by forgiving and letting things go. Many people run in circles trying to hide the past. They lie and coverup the past and never chose to find the joy. Stop running, stop pretending and lying and don't make life so hard. Love yourself, forgive yourself, and let go of the past. Only then will you see that God desires for you to enjoy your life. Only then can you feel God's love.

 

 

Program March 3

Child Abuse Must Stop

Identify what it is and begin to love as God does. Jesus came to make sure we understood that abuse is not tolerated by the Father. This is not a threat but something we need to seriously stop doing. When we hurt others we hurt ourselves as well.

Your children are given to you as a gift from the Father and what you do with the opportunity to raise them does affect them. Raise them in a way that they can be able to live successful lives.

 

 

 

 

 

Program February 24th

Mental and Physical Abuse.

How to identify an abuser and what to do. Anyone can be victimized by an abuser. Tonight we will look at scenarios that are mental abuse. We will talk about how many, don't know they are being abused. However, in time they become even more victimized. What to do when you can't do anything right begins with your own willingness to get out of a bad situation. You can't begin if you stay in the abuse.

People that hurt others and then try covering their tracks all their lives and pretending, are really only hurting themselves. Tonight we will talk about many types of abuse. I was abused mentally for 31 years in a marriage that should have never been. I will no longer hide or pretend. My hope is that others will see that staying in abuse cannot help you grow but in fact you may become so scarred that you can't even get away from it. God wants you to not Just survive but to enjoy life. 

Whether it is physical or mental abuse it is the same. It destroys your self worth. Many stay in these situations because of fear. Fear of loosing what they have or fear of loosing their lives. Each person is supposed to grow in this life. God wants your victory. The key to healing begins with how you feel about yourself and that is why you must remove yourself from the abuse and then begin to forgive and love yourself unconditionally. It takes time and believe me you can be free. 

 

Program February 17th:

Taking Any Problem and showing you the avenue in which you can begin to have Abundant Growth!

Our True Identity is magnificent. When you know who you are and why you are here, you want to experience the joy of life. 

We often find we are in pain in our life struggles and tonight I want to share with you how you can get out of them and begin to really live your life. God loves you and He never intended that life would be painful. Our circumstances are a result of our choices and the only way to change things is to come to a higher understanding and make different choices. 

 

 

 

Program February 10th:

"The real and lasting victories are those of peace and not of war" ~Ralph Waldo Emerson~

War is an "extreme state of imbalance" where God's desire of peace that passeth all understanding, has been literally blown aside by an all-consuming necessity to fight an enemy that is considered to be the ultimate threat. This is when the "mindset" of war casts aside higher principles and people feel justified in doing anything to defeat the "enemy". This must stop and it can stop if we put aside pride and learn to deal with our situations with respect to our differences.

Emotions out of control, an imbalance in a person or nation, is the cause of all war. War is the result of becoming agitated to the point that something has to be done. Our emotions keep us going in circles and doing the same thing. The real cause of all war is found in each individual's emotional struggles which is linked to the need to be "right". 

 

 

 

Program February 3rd:

"Understanding Death: We all Lose Someone but it's not to be the end of our growth"

We all lose those we love, while living our lives on earth, but why do these experiences often cripple up to the point where we cannot BE all we Came to Be? What is the purpose of these experiences and how can they help us become empowered instead of feeling a never ending loss? Death is not an option on earth, it is a reality but "how we view" death is an option.

Death is part of life because it ushers in change. Change is part of life and actually is a gift to keep us growing and transcending everything in life. Death comes to all, but it is because it signifies an opportunity to change our interpretation of life and help us grow in understanding. We all connect to one another and it helps us to be a part of another person's life but when they leave we need to be able to keep our individuality by not allowing the loss to take away our inner happiness. When we can do this, we can see that they are not gone but simply have transcended into another vibration and their lives can help empower us as we continue. One day we will return as they did and see them again, but for now let us use their lives as "rocket fuel" to empower us to finish our lives. 

 

 

Program January 27th: 

 

"Relationships-What we are responsible for and what we are not"

When we stay in situations that keep us from growing, we not only hurt ourselves but others. Jesus didn't die in an effort to cripple us. We are not suppose to remain "stuck" because his life was to free us, not imprison us out of obligation.If you become a martyr then you never finish your life and you encourage others to not finish. We need to understand how all the pieces do fit together to help us grow.

 

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It has been through the struggles to overcome the scars of emotional abuse that I have found the underlying cause of what keeps us stuck in the dramas of life. Our emotional baggage we carry from the experiences of life are attaching us to the past and injustices we have gone thru. 

We can go over and over things in our minds and justify why we feel that life is unfair. But in doing this we only keep going is circles. The only way out of the pain of the past is to forgive all who ever harmed us. We need to love ourselves unconditionally and forgive the same. 

We are Spiritual Beings having a human experience, that we call "life". Life is a classroom in which we can potentially grow in understanding. God has given us Free Will to enable us to choose as we wish. Those choices, good or bad, are to help us grow in understanding. When we grow, we also begin to put away anything that harms our future growth. 

Emotional attachments are like poisons that keep us from being free from the past. If we could learn the lessons, like we would learn lessons in a math class and not have emotional attachments, we would grow faster. 

You are loved by God with Unconditional love which means you can never loose His love. God wants you to grow in awareness but each person, being different, must chose according to their level of understanding. When we make a choice and it turns out bad, instead of beating ourselves up, we need to see the lesson and move on. Nothing is lost when you have grown from the experience. it's not a waste but simply a profound understanding that you have now seen for yourself. 

Our lives are designed to constantly transcend and become MORE from the experience. We are created from the pure force of Unconditional Love which will not allow us to remain stuck in any situation. We become miserable when we stop growing. Painful circumstances can be the result of your choices. Love yourself enough to remove yourself from anything that is harming you. Love yourself Unconditionally so that you become the same force that created you. 

God desires that your light comes from the source within you and is not dependent on anything outside of you. God is within you and He will help you every step of the way. God is whom we pray to and He will send help thru many avenues. It is up to us to see the choices. 

 

Program March 24

Tonight we continue our series on "Human Trafficking". Amira Birger continues her heartbreaking story of a life full of abuse, beginning at age 6 years old. Also joining us is a Former Phoenix City Counsel woman, Peggy Bilstien who spends much time helping our youth. Also a special guest who is the Director of "Mending The Soul", Dagny Mallory, will share with us the program that has helped Amira Birger to not only heal from the past, but also to plan a future that will bring her back the joy she has missed for so many years.

Join us as we continue to share.

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Have you ever felt that the more you do "right", the more difficult your challenges become? So many people spend entire lifetimes trying to live honest lives but find that the challenges never end. They draw closer in a spiritual sense and yet they continue to experience the trials that cut them to the heart. Why?

Your life is not about being obedient to others but about growing in awareness for yourself. You can spend alot of time and money helping others but only what is within you can bring you peace and knowing God is within you is the most important.  Only how you feel about it will bring the fulfillment. You are a spiritual being that has come to earth to live in this lifetime. Helping others is a wonderful part of your journey but if you do this only to feel better about yourself, then you will find a new challenge within. Feeling the love for yourself needs to be there no matter what others do around you.

God wants you to see that you have the ability to feel good about yourself no matter what you do or do not do for others. Don't get me wrong when I say this. I simply am referring to your need to build within yourself a love that is immovable and after that what you do or do not do is a choice that will not affect how you feel about yourself.

Many search for that "good" feeling in knowing they are faithful to family, friends and church. However, in giving of themselves they also experience the result of someone's acceptance of their gift. When someone uses and abuses you, it hurts deeply and you begin to question what is the purpose of it all. Let's look at what is really happening when you give and another abuses your gift.

Your gift needs to be unconditional. This means what you do for others should not affect how you feel in your heart about yourself. Why you do what you do is more important than what you do. Unconditional love means there are no conditions needing to be met by the receiver. If you loan something in an effort to help, you need to understand that if they choose to not payback the debt, it is on their plate. Yes you will experience a loss but inside you need to not emotionally attach to what they do to you. And even more important you need to not blame yourself or speak anything down on yourself. We do the best we can with what we know at the time.

It is easy to beat ourselves up but if you can experience what others do to you and not blame or belittle yourself, you will keep the foundation of unconditional love for yourself, strong.

The giver and the receiver of good will are two individuals that have an individual purpose for their lives. Each is responsible for their actions. You cannot force anyone to do what they don't want to do. Often times our greatest frustration is found in helping people change. We do things for them to give them second and third chances but when it's all said and done, they return back to their old ways of doing things. It's frustrating when this happens.

We need to lay our gifts at their feet and walk on. Remember "gifts" don't necessary mean material or monetary. We need to detach from the outcome we have desired to take place. We cannot help anyone really change. We can assist them in seeing the need to change but real change must be done by a free will choice of each individual.

Most of the time we get frustrated when helping others simply because we are expecting a certain outcome and we have become attached to the need for it to happen. We become attached to the need for it to happen because of a lack we have about ourselves. This attachment keeps us frustrated and angry with that person. We also can take on a feeling of failing them which brings into our being "blame" for ourselves.

When you do the best you can, love yourself for doing it. When you help another, don't expect anything in return. When you can let go of the need to create a particular outcome, you can love yourself unconditionally when trying to help.

The more you do right, the more difficult your challenges become, can be answered when you look at your "response" to what you do for others. Each experience is for you to build a stronger foundation of unconditional love for yourself. When you can do this, the next experience will be easier. The quicker you learn the easier the difficulties will be. 

We are in classroom on earth, in this life, to learn about ourselves and what we can do to help ourselves love unconditionally and forgive unconditionally, ourselves, first. If you believe that in order to feel good about yourself you need to not only give, but see that they receive it or change things because of your gift, then you still need to understand "unconditional love". You are basing your happiness on conditions.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Let's make up an example:

You are in your 30's and you have had many bad relationships. You refuse to work and you refuse to take responsibility for your circumstances. Your mother is still bailing you out. You are angry at her and at life. You blame everyone and have a bad temper. 

First of all you must understand that life only changes when you decide you are ready. You need to begin somewhere and sometimes the best place is found in getting a job and creating a foundation in which you can build upon. You also might want to pick an occupation and then go back to school to better your credentials. 

This one step will help you feel better about yourself. It is important to begin to build a foundation for yourself with love for yourself. You are a part of the Father. God is within you and you cannot hide from Him. However God wants your victory and He is not a father that is ready to condemn you or pick you apart. God wants you to be all you are created to be. What is that, you may ask? You are created in God's image and likeness and that means you are not created a sinner by birth. That is a belief in religious doctrine that is far from the truth.

Adam and Eve were not sinners from the beginning, but there choices took them from the presence of being able to communicate with God. There choice kept them from hearing God's voice. God was still within them, but they couldn't feel Him. To hear the voice of God, you must be able to know He is within you, but they felt alone and cast out of the Garden. Their choices cast them out of the Garden and only their choices could bring them back. We are not to take on the blame of Adam and Eve, for that is theirs to deal with. 

Back to the example, let's say it is a young man, his anger and frustration exists because he has relied on others to get him thru life. He must take responsibility for his path and not expect anyone to bail him out. He may have anger toward his mother and it might be from his interpretation of her life. Sometimes we go back into the past to figure things out, but remain stuck on the old "reel" where the drama is played over and over again. It is important to let the past go and the lesson from the past is the only thing we take with us. You cannot change the past and you cannot take the blame either. Forgive yourself unconditionally and focus on doing things different from this day forward. 

The path to change begins with a decision from you. Your decision in the beginning might be minimal, but remember "it is a beginning" and you need to love yourself for making that choice. It is vital to love yourself unconditionally while you take one more step in a direction of change.

If you have bad habits such as drinking or drugs, then you can begin to implement a plan to get help. Some people cannot take hold of their lives until they are able to see more clearly. Drugs and alcohol hinder their ability to do this. The path to change is one day at a time. It's not perfect and it won't be without setbacks but what is important is that you decide to begin and to keep going, even when there are setbacks.

God wants you to be all you are created to be. God created you to create, just like Him. However, you can only create in the spiritual realm from the same force that God creates---Unconditional Love. On earth, you can create out of anger, selfishness, etc, but it will only remain on earth and it will be a waste of precious time if that is all you focus on. 

You have a choice but only when Unconditional Love courses thru you and you become the same force, will you be able to create as God does. It will also allow you to accept God's love and to love others the same. Many people try to love unconditionally but get stuck on "conditions" and therefore the kind of love they feel is only earthbound. If they have unconditional love for themselves then they will freely give it to others. You cannot give this to others until you have it for yourself. You cannot give what you do not own. 

You came to earth to resolve anything in your psychology that keeps you from loving yourself Unconditionally and forgiving yourself Unconditionally. You also came to share your talents. 

The path to Change is in your hands and you are the only one that can accomplish this. Take back your life and begin to make decisions that will help you grow. 

 

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Many people have experienced different kinds of abuse. The truth is no one has the right to hurt another person who is trying to do their best. The abuser has a need to put others below them in an effort to feel good. They control and belittle, keeping you submitting to there every whim. They are careful to appear before others as a "good" person. This is why you must choose because of what you are feeling over and over again. Another person may think they are good but it is because they treat others different than they treat those whom they want to control. 

You cannot change many of these people. They are so blinded by their ego trips that they don't see how life really works. God gave us two universal laws that are to guide us if we lose our ability to communicate to God. The Law of Cause and Effect (Karma) and The Law of Free Will. We would lose our ability to communicate with God when the abuse has created enough fear where we can't think for ourselves. I had learned in my marriage that nothing I could do would help him to accept and love me. No matter how "perfect" I tried to be, it was never enough. People who expect some kind of standard to be met, actually judge themselves even harsher. They must put others in their place by telling them it's not good enough. They actually enjoy watching you cry and bend to there demands. 

Keep in mind that marriage is a union to encourage your partner to be all they desire to be. It is a union to accept your differences and love each other no matter what. Expecting perfection will only keep someone from growing and becoming all they desire. Expecting someone to be perfect simply puts a demand on them to be someone else instead of yourself. That is not growth and that is not a good marriage. 

These people are hurting inside and they try to find relieve from their pain by making others look bad. They mock your dreams and they burden you with so much that you cannot possibly think of doing anything for yourself. When you choose to leave them, they twist the abuse they have inflicted on you, to appear you have done it to them. When you have struggled to help their families and sacrifice many thankless hours, they turn around and say you never liked their family. As you decide to leave this kind of emotional battering they will spend countless hours turning the rest against you and making you look so unreasonable and the cause of all problems. They also will belittle you if you have a goal or a dream, once again. No one has the right to tell you, you are worthless. No one has the right to lock you in a cage and expect you to enjoy it. 

Emotional abuse creates a deep fear of failure within you and by all counts this fear increases the longer you are with them. For 31 years I tried to please, I tried to give all I had, but nothing was "right". When I decided to leave this 31 yr marriage it was a choice made out of desperation. I felt so numb to life and so depressed that i could hardly imagine leaving. I had lost a good majority of my hopes and dreams. I had become withdrawn and no longer cared about laughing or trying to fix bad situations. I had lost so much of myself, that I didn't know if I could survive. No one understands until they have walked it but if you can imagine, then this could prevent you from allowing others to destroy your life.

I wanted to help so many people and to encourage them to do anything their heart desires but the condition of my mental state was so bad that all i could see was I had to put one foot in front of the other. We dig deep holes in an effort to survive however in doing this, we shut down our personality, our hope, and everything that makes us so special as Spiritual Beings.

God wants us to chose LIFE and to get away from situations that are destroying our very soul's purpose. Let the people go and feel no guilt or failure. Save yourself and start on a path with Unconditional Love and Unconditional Forgiveness for yourself.

As I look back I know that God's grace saved me. His answer to my prayers were to take one more step. He brought me friends that helped me. I read spiritual teachings, as well as the Bible and began to let go of anything that was self-defeating. Today I sit before you, to present unto you the hope you also can have if you are willing to take back your life. If you are willing to see yourself as a spiritual being having a human experience and that everything you encounter is to help you grow in understanding, then you also can learn to love yourself unconditionally and forgive everything you have ever done. Take on a new mindset where you no longer have to prove to anyone your self worth but simply love yourself no matter what.  

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